It was so wonderful to hear from you Sanderika. I have been checking your thread each day just to see if you've touched base. I read your post to Nell so I have an update on how you are coping. You have such personal strength and although these days are extremely challenging for you, you will continue to grow as the wonderful independent person you are. Take your time and don't be concerned at how long this process takes. It takes as long as it takes. All this self reflection can only be positive for you in the long term.
As always I am so grateful for your insight. Thanks for pointing out all those positives. It's always helpful and interesting to see what another gleans from a situation.
Although I agree that H did appear to enjoy the walk I doubt that he will initiate an invite. He hasn't done that in the past and I feel sure that his recent email about solicitors was simply to get back in touch. I wondered why he did that rather than sending a text and saying hi and suddenly it hit me; H is very concerned that anything he initiates may be misinterpreted by me and I might take it to mean he is interested in taking things further and he's not.
So.....with that in mind it seems H will accept invitations and will respond to my messages. It seems that for now I have to initiate and just show him I am safe and I won't pressure. I also have to continue to show him I have another life and I am not at all dependent on him or needy.
This is most definitely my last attempt so how I handle this is crucial. My mantra has to be 'patience and no expectations.' My timing will be vital.
