I am leaving for a quick trip out of the country and am kinda looking forward to it. I used to dread traveling for work, and during the past 9 months didn't want to leave home at all given the M situation, but I have a different attitude now.
It is still a hassle and tiring when you travel for work, but the time away from W will do us both good I think. We will be spending weekends apart for the next several weeks as we will alternate taking D15 out of town to tournaments and then she is going to a wedding out of state with my ILs and I will stay back with the kids. I think this will be a good thing - we need space/distance more than anything these days it seems.
She has been kind of quiet the last few days - cold and quiet. I think she is a little miffed that I went out and bought a new bed. They delivered it Friday. I have a feeling she will be using it while I am gone the next several nights.
Something has to give here - I can't see her sleeping in the game room on that couch forever, but I can't see her deciding to work on the M either. She now has too much to lose by working on it - she has been telling close friends and family how over it is and that she is done. If by some miracle she decided she wanted to work on it she would be admitting to herself and others "I was wrong about that" and I cant EVER see her doing that. She is too proud. Not that anyone would call her on that, but it is a mental/emotional barrier that she would struggle crossing.
It is a moot point right now - she clearly doesn't want to be M but she doesn't want to leave either!
The alternative is to stay in limbo like she is, however, and I am afraid she will do that forever and therefore force me to initialte a D or something. But when? When should I pull the trigger? When should I completely give up and trow in the towel? Hard to say right now....
ME/XW:47 S21, D19, S15, S14 M:21 T:26 W moved 6/10 I filed 7/10 D final 4/12 remarried 8/12 W wants to R 12/10 and 4/11 but I decline
