Bewildered

[KiwiMan]

Thanks guys for the comments. It is really great to have support here.

The weekend was great. I had a really good time for myself. She had the kids weekend. And I was being strong all the way through the weekend untill last night.

I checked her emails at home and there was a friend request on Facebook from the same guy she had stayed up till just 6:30am "Talking" the other week, the message said "Hey Beautiful". I rang her last night to say goodnight to the kids, and when speaking with my daughter she mentioned that there werent any other kids there and she was playing with this same guy that invited her friend on Facebook(They were around at a friends having drinks. Aswell as this, I had arranged to have the kids back last night at 5pm... She rang me and asked if I could go and pick them up from the friends house. I said no, as I had had a few drinks also. My wife then decided that she would stay at this friends place with the kids.

Anyway, when I spoke to her last night.. I kind of lost it a bit and starting talking to her again about what was going on.. big mistake I know.

This morning I have been talking to a lawyer and he has asked that we both visit him so we understand what all the steps involved with seperation are.

I have asked my wife to meet me at home this afternoon to discuss that and make an appointment with the lawyer.

Because I was short with her on the phone, and when I text messaged her this morning,I sent her a message asking what time she would be home so we could talk. She replied to my SMS message saying "Only got work for 4 hours so should be home about 2pm, Why are you sounding so stressed?"

Has she got no idea... What sort of question is that... we are in marriage crisis and she asks me why I sound stressed! gah!.

I guess I am starting to feel like the saying. If you keep beating the dog, he eventually won't feel it... I think I am starting to resent my wife and am starting to become numb and drained with all of this emotional stuff.