You are entitled to your down times Nell, they are a big part of the rollercoaster ride you are on at the moment. But you have to remember and this is what I tried to do each time I was down, that they are for the most part miserable in their own heads even if they don't show it on the outside, they aren't necessarily having fun, in fact it is one thing I have learn't in my conversations this weekend with my H, the exterior is nothing of what is going on inside.
Also you can't let your H's decisions at the moment affect your mood, hard I know, but you have to rise above that and try to find the joy in simple things of life around you and try not to dwell on things too much it isn't healthy for your mind or body.
I wish I could give you a big hug in person Nell because I know how good it makes me feel.
