Rob, I am not going to wait another year... I cant. I am at the end of my rope here. Not regarding him, regarding me and my future. I feel lonely, I feel I NEED that emotional & physical connection with a man older than 8 years old. Unfortunately, I may need to wait more than year since the dating scene is pretty dead here, but at least I could give it a try... No matter what I tell him, he has the opportunities and the time to do as he wishes. I am not dictating to him what he should do.
Today my S turned 8. stbxH call around 2 and asked if I wanted to go for lunch with the kids. I said I had already grilled some lamb chops and said he was welcome after the 30 secs silence from his part.
He came and we had lucnh. I had a splitting headache and went to my room. He spent the time with the kids.
Later I was laying on the couch and my son was beside me and I tried to rub his feet with mine. Well, stbxHs arm was there and I didnt realise I was rubbing him. When I did, I jumped up and got red and said I am very sorry. It was funny and also shocked him cause I was so upset by it. I was. Didnt want to get any ideas in his head.
He was sad today.Offered to check my head for lice and wanted me to check his. His hair is thick and turning white. I said "wow, had forgotten how thick your hair is" which somehow sounded as if so much has happened and there is such a big distance between us...
Is this normal? To know that he lied and cheated on me and still be so polite and accepting? Somethings is really twisted here. K
