Back home again, managed to come home a bit earlier as my friend and I went first and did a polite excuse me! By the time I arrived having got stuck in the traffic a bit I was a bit fractious, but managed to come in and go get tidy up and make myself presentable, whilst H was packing his bag to leave, it was all getting a bit too much and it was hard to keep tears at bay, but I enjoyed the tea he had made me, and settled beside him for a cuddle, he kept saying how tired he was and how he must go, and I managed to suggest that he didnt have to do anything and now he is staying and going to work in the morning!
He is funny he keeps doing a tiny bit of schoolboy/mlc/back off stuff then tries to pretend he has a more logical alternative, basically trying to show he has control when he really wants to do what he knows I want to do, its actually quite sweet.
So much to analyse and so much he keeps saying, will try and journal it all tomorrow, but two key things were when I mention that he was so much quicker to divorce people in some countries all you had to do was agree you hated each other, he replied "oh well we wont be divorce as we will always be friends" Then this afternoon, telly programme was suggesting a "trial seperation" and I went "oh were not having that" and turned it over" he smiled and said "why is it all the telly programmes are having a trial seperation" I sorta had a dig and said "well ours isnt exactly trial" and he pointed out that as we are seeing each other were not really "separated" So maybe he is changing his thought patterns, but I know I cant push in anyway I just have to "let him come to momma" lol!
Anyway just having a quick squizz around and will chat tomorrow!
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Once lost but now found and happily married again!
