I went out last night with some friends. Nothing major, just went for food, then went downtown to goof off for a while. I wasnt in any mood for a club. I had a good time. Had a guy give me his cell # and ask me to txt him sometime. I must have had a very odd look on my face , then told him I was married. THEN one of my dam friends said, yea but not HAPPILY and he's out of the country with someone else. I wanted to crawl under a rock. I calmly pointed out that my marriage wasnt up for public scrutiny. The guy said if I ever needed someone to talk to that wasnt biased to let him know. I thanked him and walked away. I had so many different emotions going thru my head at that point I was spinning for a bit. I have no intention of EVER calling the guy and thru his number out the car window. Then i realized, guys will say just about anything to get with a girl. Then I thought, why is my h the only one allowed to have someone to be with while I am alone. Then realized, its because he's selfish and immature. So then i wondered, why cant i have someone unbiased to talk to? Then realized, because thats NOT what this guy wants ands its highly inappropriate and setting myself up for more problems. Anyway, I went thru this whole line of thinking in about 3 min, then pushed it out of my mind. We all went to coffee (I had tea) and later i went home. Started watching a movie and fell asleep on the couch about 5 min into it, lol.
I feel ok today. Very tired, and paying for walking so much last night. Im sore sore sore. Still had a good time and glad I got out.
As for my anger yesterday... I ended up throwing a glass against the wall. Im not strong enough to break it. Sad huh. But I felt better and went on with my day.
Thx for the support guys, some days its all that gets me thru.
thx browni...
