Nell, you're not alone...we all have the stronger times and then the low times. In those times I can recognise that I am just being plain pathetic. However, there are times when I need to be pathetic and to wallow in self pity before I give myself a giant smack and get back into life. I'm sure it's like that for us all. It's a bit like eating everything in sight before deciding enough is enough and embarking on the diet.