Went to a wedding. Had a pretty decent time. Came home quite tipsy. H deposited me in bedroom and went downstairs. I felt rejected. Went downstairs and it turned into a relationship talk. A fairly respectful one yet still not helpful. Only new piece of info out of it is that H thinks I'm trying to be someone I'm not. (Recent niceness) He has no plan but is worried about how this will affect our kids. He's still very sure that he's done all he could in the past to try to fix this and it can't be fixed. I assured him that I honestly want to change the wAy I communicate-his bomb is a wake-up call not a forced thing on my part.
So looks like I really messed up tonight by talking about the big R!
