I echo the previous comments. We have all been there. It hurts in a way you simply can't explain to anyone. You have to have been there to understand.
Right now, you have to focus on yourself and GAL - stay busy. Stop worrying what she thinks.
Even when you think things look very bleak, don't give up. You WILL discover strength you never would have thought you had. That was one of the biggest surprises for me.
The contact from your D is tough. Forgive me, I haven't read your thread, so I do not know your sitch. Is D upset with you? I would tread lightly here - she has to be in a good deal of pain too.
At this point, you don't have to make it through next month. You only have to make it through today. And then tomorrow, you only have to make it through that day.
It is very tough for the first month or two. But it gets easier.
