Yeah, Cat, I`ll settle for just being very annoying! Haven`t felt so mad in a while.
But Trapt may have put his finger on the sore spot. My therapist doesn`t buy into MLC or PA. I`m wondering if H is behaving badly because of ME. Maybe he will be better when we separate. Maybe he will be more involved with the kids. Maybe I drove him to all the bizarre stuff.
I know I have to let go either way. Just dreading the day for the kids when we tell them. I`m angry too that H couldn`t man up enough to at least try some form of reconciliation for their sakes.Tough enough to be a kid these days without one parent walking away.
Yeah, I know its just a feeling and hopefully it`ll pass, but I just worry so damn much about the kids in all of this.
Ok, chin up and moving forward...
Gonna take time out tomorrow to further my reinvention of me.Going to up my GAL stuff -the just for me and with the kid things.Going to plan some home improvement things that will really keep a positive buzz to this place.Going to list all the things I`ll be able to do with H gone.
Dunno if therapy is more of a hindrance than a help at this point. I just get so down after it.
Thanks Trapt for taking all that time out to post your words of wisdom.you know this battle well.
Cat,I know I`m blessed to have you here!Hope you`re having a good day!
