We did go to retro and it seems like the dialogue has "done" something to him and triggered a cycle. He is bi-polar and unmedicated. If the bomb is dropped I will do my best to not react in a non-DB way. I've been through this before and didn't act the way I should've. However, he has said before that he's waiting until I can "deal" with all of this before he leaves. So, it seems like the more "ok" I am about it the more ok he will be with leaving but I just have to do what I have been told works and the DB way seems to work.
I did pin all the hopes and dreams on retro and now that we ae through the weekend and something in his has "snapped" I'm really feeling pretty hopeless. Thanks for all of the help and encouragement throughout this day. It's seemed like eternity until our "talk". I have no idea when it will be but we shall see, won't we. This is hard. I am really sad..like heartbreaking in two sort of sad. More for my daughter than anyone. He is just so mentally ill that he can't see that none of what he is feeling is about me or the marriage. he's ill and needs help.
Thanks to everyone...peace to all
Gina B
M 43 H 34 D 4 H asked for D on 6/21/09:1st D mediation 7/27;D says he wants to try 8/18; *I will stumble, I will fall down but I will not be moved.(N.Grant)
