I didn't even have alcohol to blame my behavior on! But, I get it, all the sweet talking worked...what can I say...even a broken clock gets the time right twice a day as they say...score 1 for H...
My POV. You want this marriage to work. Your husband gave you something you have needed in your marriage for a long time - he gave you some financial security. As soon as he told you that he would give you the support money you asked for you backslid. Make him work, show you and provide, before you give him the milk. A drowning person grasps at straws, a strong confident woman swims. Cheers
M22,H45,W45 S21/18D12 Retain faith that you will prevail in the end, regardless of the difficulties and at the same time confront the most brutal facts of your current reality, whatever they might be.