Looks like I might soon be LBS...newcomer here

[brownidmom]

Still not feeling great, having a hard time getting my allergies under control. Still have a headache and sinus issues. I need to try to get back on one thread. Not sure if you caught my other one, but H had to go in overnight for tests and neglected to mention to me that he would be gone all night. Ended up staying 2 nights and I still have no idea what the results are.

I have decided that he will talk to me when he feels like it. As I am learning to detach, I realize that there are many times when I don't want to be around him, but that I was so consumed by his not wanting to be around me/talk to me, that I would always make the effort because of the lack of communication between us. Now I am going to worry about myself and my boys and deal with H only when I feel like it. Otherwise, he is a roommate. I will be my congenial self (after I get rid of this sinus nonsense) and move about in daily life with a goal in mind- BE THE BEST ME I I CAN BE, BE THE BEST MOM I CAN BE, DO WHAT I HAVE TO DO, DO WHAT I WANT TO DO, and ENJOY MY LIFE.

I have allowed myself to be miserable for so long. I have to stop blaming my being miserable on H!

Yes, I am finally getting it!!! THANK GOD!!!

Sitting here next to an open window listening to the neighbors working on their home, sun shining through the window is peaceful, even with my headache. Hearing my boys playing computer games from the next room, having them come in every little bit to talk and play with me is joy. I can have a good day even though my life isn't perfect. I can choose to be happy!