A lot of the pain and horror has subsided.

Normally this would be a good thing, but I've gained a lot of insight and direction from it. The next few days should determine how I deal without the drive of the immense grief behind me. There is still a lot, just not the nuclear-strength grief of the past month.

Now is the hard part, I suppose--making the real changes without the whip.

Last edited by M A Holm; 09/26/09 08:22 AM.
~Mark

Me: 38
W: 34
Together: 9yrs
1st M: may '03
1st D: april '08
1st bomb: june '08
remarried: oct '08
2nd bomb: aug '09 --(W asked for D one week into 3 mo. trial separation which was meant to save our M)