Still here......

[Belle]

Hi optimist!!!!

I had searched for you recently, but hadn't found you.

I'm glad to hear that you have worked things out. I know the last few posts I saw things were looking great. That is awesome that you are still together. I always dread hearing from those that seem to have rode off into the distance that things went sour again. Congrats to you - I know that you really worked hard on your R and you were patient.

Tonight I am feeling sad........I have talked to H a couple of times this week due to Life Insurance issues (he STILL hadn't gone into the office and they had been calling him since the end of Aug). I was downright tired of it. When we did talk on the phone, we got to laughing and it was bittersweet because it will be over soon. The peace that God has given me somehow allows me to not hold grudges or anger towards him.

It's awesome that your H came around, mine just isn't doing much at all for himself or us.....It's very sad.

I filled out all the paperwork for the D and now all I have to do is take it to the county clerk's office and pay $100. I'm crying as I write this and I haven't cried in more than a month. The paperwork was amazingly simple and the Marital Settlement Agreement also looks amazingly simple also. Who knew getting a D would be so easy? (Although I haven't let him know yet).

This is one of the hardest things I think I will ever have to do. But I know I've got to move on with my life.

Thanks for checking up on me.