You did NOT do anthing to "deserve" this type of behavior, MJ. This is NOT you, its....him. It's HIS issue. It's just that you are married to him and he CAN take his immaturity/MLC out on you.
I go thru this question and answer myself...everyday....every single damnn day! But, all we can do is learn from this...for example, we can be more independent and explore other interests in life, instead of the the interest of "marriage" or "husband" or "being a good wife". But that is you ADAPTING to what life throws at you....its not anything you "DESERVE". Its hard. I feel your pain, MJ...
The thing that I can find fault in...is not catching my marriage as it was starting to fail initially (the first red flag that you can think of now, sitting and pondering and examining your life) .....I let our communication drop down to zero. In retrospect that was the death of us. But, I am a human, I make mistakes....
You are an amazing woman and your husband is right now, in the slumps, with a ton of other MLCers!
Keep faith, my friend, that God is trying to help us better ourselves and our lives in some way. Have a wonderful weekend. Try to find some small joy in your day. I enjoyed playing around with my plants today...even with seeing my home clean and organized. Lots of good vibes are being sent your way!
