It's too hard sometimes

[TooLateForMe]

Today I accidentally came across some old texts between us. They confirmed that she has been GIVING ME A ROADMAP to a happy R. I have been ignoring her clear signals for years! She's been giving me signals lately that indicate she needs her space but also that she wants contact and closeness with me. I am really seeing how confused she is in what she wants.

Going dark may cause her to pursue me even harder. But showing her that I care, that I'm changing and listening to her signals may help to topple that wall.

Example: she won concert tickets and went on about them. She couldn't go due to a kid-related situation then changed her mind and told me she didn't know who to ask. I say I'll go, then I backpedal and say never mind before she can shoot me down. Trying not to be needy but showing I'm there if she's interested. I guess I should have just ignored the whole thing, said "cool, have fun."

These are treacherous waters!! One wrong turn and boom!