It's too hard sometimes

[Amy40]

Also thinking of projecting an "I'm moving on" attitude. Not telling her directly, but suggesting...

That's strategy and very likely to get you exactly what you do not want.
Despite the number of posts listed under my name I'm no newbie here.

Your problem is that you are not getting what you want so you're trying to come up with a plan that you hope will get you the response you desire - HER reaching out to you.

Bad move.

All strategies are.

I see the word "detachment" being thrown around but let me tell you from right here at jump street, give up trying to "get there". You can't. Detachment comes IN TIME. Basically until then, fake it til you make it and do your best to drop every single expectation you could possibly be holding dear to your heart.

Don't sweat the 9th.
You reached out and asked if you could be there - she told you yes.
THAT IS SOMETHING.

Now when you're there don't be a weiner and expect her, before or after her procedure, to take care of YOU because you don't like hospitals. Be the man that you are, the man that you are becoming. Project confidence and show her what she's losing. She'll see. She might not say anything, but she WILL see. So don't worry if she doesn't say anything for a while. Just BE THE MAN THAT YOU ALWAYS SHOULD HAVE BEEN - who you are NOW becoming. Also, don't worry that it took the rug gettin' pulled out from under you to get you to wake up. Happens to the best of us.

Press on towards the mark!


Peace,

Amy