It's been a while...

We had our weekend getaway. It was going well until Sat. pm when H went outside to the car. I look out the window and see him on his phone...texting. I was upset by the time he got back in, he asks he what's wrong and I tell him I can't believe your contacting her on our "romantic getaway". H flips, gets mad and says he was checking his calendar to see when his next break came up so we could go back. He can't believe I don't trust him etc... I knew it was total bullsh!t. The next week I tried to call phone co. to see if he was texting OW but H has taken me off the account so I can't get any info.

Fast forward...told H last week he has to the end of the month to break all contact and to have no more secrets or I'll know he's not serious about working on the M.

My decision now is to decide what I will do when Oct. 1 shows up and he hasn't stopped. I'm thinking I either tell him to get the he!l out or we live in separate bedrooms and put the house on the market. I don't think he'll stop contact and I will not share my H with someone else.

Meanwhile H acts likes all is well and there are no problems. Me...well I'm just tired of it all and want peace.


Me: 39 H: 39
S: 15
M: 18 years
Bomb: 6/3/09
H moved out: 10/15/09
H moved back:5/30/10