I hope your son has a great birthday tomorrow. I know you'll do all you can to make the day special for your little man.
As for stbx's reaction to your e-mail, I find it to be both disappointing and very telling. It is disappointing b/c he's showing he's not able to fight for your M. It is very telling b/c it shows that he just doesn't seem to "get it."
If he can't figure out what to do, if he doesn't know what needs to be fixed, and if he can't understand what you need from him as a partner, lover, and friend, then he seems to be unfortunately lost. Very sad.
Finally, as for the experience of a year ago, I'm so glad to see that it makes you smile when you think of it. I know you have some sadness over what "could have been" but the positive is you were able to experience what it really means to love and be loved by another man. You know you are capable of so much more than stbx can give you and this experience is so positive b/c it gives you insight as to what lies ahead for you.
I wish I could wave a magic wand and move you out of the place you are in, but alas, I don't have that power. However, you'll be moving out in your own time.
The real Sunshine is starting to emerge more and more w/each passing day.
