One question I have is do I really need to know all the details about the A and the OW. I am not sure I want to know. He said i can ask anything and he will answer honestly. I do feel he is feeling a little sad having broken it off. I did ask him if her expectation was for him to leave us and marry her and he said yes. OUCH!!! Anyways, he had a major breakdown last night and cried hard, saying he was so sorry for the pain he caused--I really think too he is mourning that loss--I know that is normal right? He did change his cell number yesterday and is having all the bills mailed to our home so I have all the records. He wants to re-engage with our Marriage Encounter Circle that we were part of. He is making the counseling appointments for us. We found a "marriage friendly" counselor who does deal with infidelity. He has told his family members and they all called me yesterday. I think he is really there.
My question, how do we really start to restore trust? Remember 2 weeks ago I planned a trip to the beach with my kiddos because I was GAL. Now that all this has happened, I am still going to the beach and he is going to our nephews wedding back in CA but he will be with his mom and dad the whole time and his mom is fully aware of EVERYTHING so she will be on him like a hawk, but I am really anxious. I know that I should not dive right into the trust right now and he knows I can't either, but I kinda have to this weekend.
Another question, how do I get past the images of him having sex to the OW everytime he touches me or when we are watching tv and a love scene comes on, it makes me sick. The problem is that I am a very physical person and I want to touch him and feel him, but when we get too close, I freeze. Do I detach from that until I get over it or how do I handle that?
I want to thank you all so much for your support, help, guidance and reality. Puppy, please let me know your thoughts on these 2 questions.
