How did I get here?

[wanttobebetter]

My Bday is coming up this Sunday and at one time we were all going to do something together. Since she has been having such a negative projection lately, I told her I would take the kids to my sister's as she wanted to have a B-day party for me.

It will be interesting to see, if anything, she does for me on Sunday. It doesn't matter one way or the other but I am anxious to see.

A part of me is ready for her to go...a part of me will be very said when she does.