Ups and Downs

[Energizer Bunny]

Back to me. I am afterall selfish and self-centered. At least that's what I have been told

I sold my Jeep yesterday. W knows that I loved the Jeep and that I had to sell it since she's moving ($$$).

After work I went to my Grandma's house. My cousin and I are cleaning it out. G'ma moved in with my Dad a couple of years ago and her house was full of junk. (She's a hoarder. Her house is nasty). Cousin and I have been cleaning it out in the evenings for weeks. It keeps me out of the house.

I called W to let her know I would not be home for dinner. She thanked me to letting her know. She seemed excited to hear from me. I kept it very short and asked to talk to S to ask him about his day.

I got home at S's bed time gave him a quick 'Good Night' and spent the rest of the night cleaning out the Jeep since it is getting picked up today. W stuck her head out and talked to me a little. She kept it about the car sale, but seemed like she wanted to talk about more. I think she's feeling pretty guilty that I sold it.

After I got myself ready for bed W asked me to scratch her back, something we used to do for eachother a lot, but hadn't for months until recently. I did, but declined when she offered to get me. I didn't initiate any conversation.

Later when I went to bed, W sent me a text (from "her" room). She had taken S into her room since they both have sniffels and she had a vaporizer in there. Her text said that she had S and closed the door for the vaporizer. It was not to keep me out. Huh. That was actually thoughtful.

I went in and hugged S and W G'night.

Same this morning. Went in to hug S and W reached for a hug too. I kissed her forehead and a quick peck in the lips...then I dashed off into the dark of the morning (dramatic eh?)

I want to leave her with just enough to miss me when she's gone.