Here's the thing I want to tell you. At the end of the day, this all sucks, big time. There are a myriad of emotions we go through traveling through this. Some days we are angry, others sad, bewildered, perplexed, devastated. There are no right emotions. We feel what we feel. And its all ok.
It doesnt make you less of a man, less of a person if you feel these things. There is no right way to go through this. Just your way for you.
As I have said to you before, you are much too hard on yourself. Cut yourself some slack, man.
As long as we can say to ourselves whatever I did or didnt do was never done with the intent to cause harm. We did the very best we could do with the tools and information we had at the time.
So, my friend, blaming yourself for things really doesnt get you anywhere. It doesnt change what happened. It doesnt serve any purpose. All you can do is use what you've learned from all of this to propel you forward.
It is time for us to dust ourselves off, learn from this experience, change what we need to change and be better people in the future.
