I want my family back!

[Calliope]

OK, I have no backbone. I got home and he was getting the boys ready for bed. He hinted around that he had to leave so he could get some sleep (he works 3rd shift). So I jumped at it and said "Say goodnight to daddy boys, he has to go" He said "So we're still good to do this? (meaning talk this weekend)" and I said "I'm not sure, we'll see".. he seemed confused and said "But we talked about this, and you were ok and then lately you've been wierd" I just kept brushing him off and tending to the boys.. and finally he said something like "Well please let me know soon, I told you that I was getting rid of the lawyer so I need to know".. I said "you said you were getting rid of him regardless, and that you may get another".. and he said "I am, but I'd like to know whats going on". So anyway, I kept brushing him off. He left, but kept giving me the "what's going on with you?" looks.

I need to just come out and tell him that we are not 'doing this together'. But I'm such a coward. In my defense, I never want to have any talks like this around the kids, and can't when I'm at work, and lately thats the only time we talk. (besides email)

Maybe he'll call tomorrow (oh yeah, his birthday!)