SO ANGRY AT H~ advice needed

[brownidmom]

Stronger~ you are right. It tore me up when he said I wasn't there for him. Our M before that was in bad shape and I tried to do as much as I could without stepping over the line to offend him and make him pull back.

As sick as it sounds, when he wasn't well, he talked to me, told me he loved me for the first time in 6 years. I thought that it might be the thing that brought us back together. As soon as I realized my thinking pattern, I prayed that God didn't make him sick to show him how wrong he was about me. See, I had been praying that he wake up and realize how silly he was being for something I did when I was 19. I still pray that he be shown some other way, not getting sick. I told him how I felt at the time, what I thought. We held each other in the dark of the night and just prayed that he was okay, that he would live to see the boys grow up. We talked about where I would go to raise the boys if something happened to him.

H doesn't talk to me anymore, has completely shut the door on me again. I pray that he is okay because my boys would be devastated without him.

So, I want to be happy. I choose to be happy. Being right means absolutely nothing if you don't have something worthwhile to show for it.