I asked my W to go out to dinner tonight, a gesture and to see if she might open up at all. I didnt provoke or indicate that I was looking for that at all. I was simply in a good mood taking care of myself and showing her the genuine interest in her that I actually have.
However if this M starts to repair and she can't meet my terms, just as she expects certain things from me, then I believe I am in a place where I can be alright on my own.
Missing my 19 and 16 yr old would be ridiculously hard though.
Here is another piece of the puzzle that I will add... We can't afford to change our minds right now, I cant imagaine either one of being able to afford a household on our own...let alone that we would need another car...or two....how does she suppose this will happen?
Well its time for me to go upstairs and get another dose of DB for tonight.
