Bewildered

[KiwiMan]

I am going out tonight with some friends into town, to have a few drinks and unwind. What you guys have been saying about the possibility of an affair is what is really getting to me at the moment. She went on a bender last night, and I know he friend she went out with is very easy if you know what I mean. My wife used to not have any respect for this friend as she would sleep with different guys all the time. And now my wife decides to go out on the drink with her... and who knows what happened. Its funny what you guys have said... I could start snooping to find out the truth.. but Do i really want to know. Thats the battle I have having in my own mind.... To know or not to know. The problem is that if I do not know, I cannot help that jealous side come out and it eats me up. At least if I knew it would devestate me but give me closure (Anger and other things aswell).

Sigh... its all tough work at the moment.