It has been almost 3 months since you walked out the door and din't look back... 3 months since you have seen our youngest son... You haven't even asked to spend anytime with him and your last phone call to him lasted all of 1 minute and 28 seconds... I sure hope you and the fat troll are happy... Thank you for leaving us homeless as well as carless... Thank you for showing our sons what a wonderful man you are and how to really treat your spouse and children - I am sure the school psychologist will appreciate all of this tomorrow when I have to take YOUR son in there and explain why he is acting out the way he is... Thank you for giving me the minimum amount of money a month to support your children - That 200 bucks sure goes a long way - I am sure you will remember that when the child support papers get done and you have to send in back pay... For 10 weeks I sat here like a fool thinking you would pull your head out of your ass and wake up... For the past 2 weeks, I have started living again.. There is so much more out in the world then what I have been seeing... I can finally, honestly say, I don't need you... I don't think I could ever trust you again... For 20 years you have always run to the past whenever things don't go the way you want - 20 years of your high school ex coming back into our lives every few years (you say she contacts you - guess what I don't believe you anymore)... You giving her your emotional support and pushing me to the side time and time again... Now you have the fat troll to keep you warm at night and I am done with the whole mess - I thank you for my boys and I thank you for showing me what a fighter I can be... I feel nothing but pity for you... The time you spend on FB searching for your old "friends" is pathetic... Maybe someday you will realize what you were searching for was already in front of your face... Maybe someday you will wake up and realize what a mess you have made and maybe you can salvage some type of relationship with your boys... As for me - I will be just fine without you..
Now - Tell me why I can't bring myself to send this?
May All Who Seek To Take My Life Be Put To Shame And Confusion; May All Who Desire My Ruin Be Turned Back In Disgrace. ~Psalm 40:14~
i was just reading about your upcoming trip to maui. you lucky dog you! I am sure it will be extremely enjoyable for you. I will pray that it is a fantastic trip for you. A trip of discovery.
...Still trying to fathom how you have managed to never get out to a McDonalds or any other place to eat on your own. Strange.
Thank you Tristan and Puppy for coming with the 2x4's
I realized yesterday after I typed that letter and posted it here, that I was finally detached - It hit me like a ton of bricks...I was able to look at his FB as well as the cell phone (he is talking to the exgf from high school more and more lately instead of the middle school exgf he left us for) and I was ok...There were no tears or worrying...I was GOOD people...It only took me 8 months to get here lol
Hi Tomato -
I leave on Halloween for 4 nights/5 days and I am a bit anxious but also excited...
I know it is weird but I have an aversion to being alone in places...
At home it is fine but no restaurants or movie theaters...
At the grocery store I could never stand in a line with someone behind me - If I had 1 or 2 items and you came up behind me with a buggy full, I would let you go ahead of me just so I didn't have you behind me...It makes my skin crawl for some reason.
My psych says I am to aware of everything going on around me so part of my 180's is to change that, so I have been going to the grocery store (and letting someone stay behind me) or mall by myself for little blocks of time...
Haven't brought myself to eat alone or go to the movies yet but I am working on it...
Thank you for your prayers for my trip
May All Who Seek To Take My Life Be Put To Shame And Confusion; May All Who Desire My Ruin Be Turned Back In Disgrace. ~Psalm 40:14~
I had to go and sit with the principal, my little ones' teacher as well as a child psychologist and explain to them one of the most embarrassing things going on in our life because my son has been acting up horribly in class...
Thanks a lot hubby - I appreciate even more humiliation....
Because living with your crap isn't enough, now it is affecting our children and does he really care???
NO and that makes me mad...
Today I want to be done with him, his s**t and our marriage...
Today I don't like him.
May All Who Seek To Take My Life Be Put To Shame And Confusion; May All Who Desire My Ruin Be Turned Back In Disgrace. ~Psalm 40:14~
"My actions are my only true belongings. I cannot escape the consequences of my actions. My actions are the ground upon which I stand." Thich Nhat Hanh
