The Beginning of the End?

[ClingingToHope]

Well the talk is done and I'm not really sure how it went.

I moved out at 10 p.m. at night on Mother's Day with a few things. The next night we had the talk and my D10 didn't take it well. She cried and cried and cried. The D7 is ADHD so she tends to move on quickly. She cried at first but seemed reassured when we talked about how they'd see me every day, which is basically true. I've never gone more than four days without seeing them for at least a little bit.

We're five months into it and the D10 puts up a brave front, talking about "when you get divorced," but every once in a while she'll start crying out of the blue. She really wants to live with me, but I told her that her mom and I decided they would stay with mom. Sometimes, to reassure her, I'll say that nothing has been filed yet so there's still hope. I don't think I'm supposed to do that, but it cheers her up.

The D7 has surprised me. She's taking it harder than I thought. When I'm over there, she hugs me and tells me not to leave. If the W and I are talking, she'll say something like "you guys are getting along" and her face will light up.

Here's an interesting difference. The W removed all pictures of me from our house. She does have pictures up of my mom and grandfather though.

I bought several photo collages to decorate my apartment. One of them, for the girls room, is several family photos with the two of us together. I'm not going to erase our history.

I don't know if this will ever feel "normal" though.