thx for the answer jon, and no i dont. im better today. He sent me another msg which i didnt answer. Just telling me he was worried and to take care of myself. Also let me know he was leaving for the weekend and hoped I had a good weekend. SO weird. I am feeling better today. My response to him was very neutral, so im not sure why he blocked then unblocked me. then changed his tune.
I went out this morning with a friend. I was going to go to lunch but was pretty tired from last night. Letting go is so hard, I thought i was doing pretty well, but I can see that im not near as detached as I need to be to get thru all this. I have to admit i felt better after reading his msg this morning. Whether or not he really cares...i dunno. he has NOT mentioned divorce again. SO, of course Im not about to.
Cheaters lie. I keep seeing this repeated on so many threads. DO they lie to the OWs too? Or are they honest with them and just lie to us? Im trying not to blame myself for all this.
One thing i DID imply in my response yesterday to him was that I dont need him and was doing fine without him. Ok, so maybe i did lie a little. Im NOT fine some days without him. But i wasnt needy or pursuing, my friend thinks it was the mention of the emails i had gotten that made him react the way he did. his response that he knew who it was and promised me it would be taken care of relieves a little of my stress. Im a bit tired of her. He didnt say he and his first OW were still getting emails from her but mutual friends say he has been complaining about it a lot.
He also mentioned the conv i had with his mom. He said he wasnt happy about it but understood and wasnt mad at either of us. I guess for now I will let things lie and see what he does. My gut tells me he is in his mind anyway, done with me and happy with the girl he is with. I really need to work on not pushing him away now.
