WAW - Very confused and devastated - pt 11

[sandi2]

I think it is really to soon for you to be considering reconciling b/c you don't even know how to label your feelings. You do realize that you feel "disgust" and as long as you feel that way, I don't think you should try to get back together. As long as you feel anger, disgust, or any other negative stuff, I'd stay away from entertaining the idea of reconciling. In fact, I blieve you give too much thought about it and your brain and emotions have not had a chance to rest. Try to just put all this aside b/c you've got until one of you get M again to think about it.

That brings me to something else. I know you are throwing yourself into being a great dad, and that is what you should do, however, you need some time for you. I think I mentioned this once before. I know you enjoy yourself and have fun with your boys, but you need some adult time. You work hard all day and you count the hours that you'll be with your kids. Have you made any new friends where you are living? I haven't seen where you've been out or where you've met anyone at the office. Is there some place you could go around town to meet new people? I'm not suggesting you get into another R b/c you aren't ready for that! But, you do need to find some folks other than your kids, your boss, and your WAW to be around. Your life needs to be more well-rounded. I think you would feel a lot better.