Yeah I am going to fight the D as much as I can. She has known that I do care about her but maybe she just wanted to see how much. I let her know last night that I do care and that I always have. I wanted to call her but I was giving her the space she wanted. She was mad because I was going out and not sitting at home pining over her.

She said several times that I could go find someone better than her. I said yeah you are right I could go out and find someone that I could get along with pretty easily and so could she. But I made a vow to her and I intend to keep it no matter how much I have to fight for it.

I told her that between 5-7 years of marriage is really tough and top of the fact that we moved to a new city and had virtually no friends here it made things tough between us. And that I had thought about leaving as well but knew that we could work through it and probably should have gone to talk to someone.

I laid into her a couple of times when she started to come up with BS. Tried to tell me that it was over a year ago when she wanted to have kids and stuff let her know that was completely wrong and it was only 4 months ago. Tried to say that I was controlling because of the city we used to live in was where I wanted to be. Called BS again because be are now in the city she has always wanted to live in. I also told her it was BS that when she gets mad at me she won't say anything and just assumes that I am jealous and then she starts flirting with some guy at work. Tries to say it was nothing.

Says she gave me hints in October that she wasn't happy. I said well maybe you should talk to me on stuff like that. I pointed out to her that she told me only 3 months ago that she was happy all spring but things just changed quickly. She said she doesn't remember saying that. This from the woman how can remember every word that I have ever said to her.

She did not agree to extending the filing date or anything but I did stand up to her and let her know I was not going to just roll over and let her change all are history around.

Maybe it made things better maybe it made things worse I don't know. But she knows where I stand on everything. And that I have changed over the past two months and am no longer just going to take her crap.

"Seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well" Matthew 6:33