1) You kind of sound like the "friend" that's waiting in the wings for his chance with a girl he likes.
2) She sounds like the girl that dangles several guys so that she can go on fun dates, meanwhile she holds you at bay with "just friends". Is that enough for you?
3) Your efforts are transparently an attempt to woo her back and are essentially pursuing. Imagine...your wife is cheating on you and yet you are the one chasing her..WTH? I would now give her a period of minimal contact (except her seeing and talking to the kids). Let her wonder what you are doing.
4) You are the fallback plan. Her life is imploding and she has you on a little "just in case" leash. If worse comes to worse, she can always bat her pretty eyelashes and you'll take her back.
5) Doesn't this all make you feel kind of ishy?
You cannot be lonely if you like the person you're alone with. Dr. Wayne Dyer
