I know everyone has been where I am way before I got here and I can't thank everyone enough for their support.
Tomorrow I will clean the house like a mad woman, hopefully get some new jeans that I desperately need to wear to the bbq. The unfortunate thing is that nothing of the bbq will get back to H as it is with the friends he thinks are all talking about him. He has no contact with them whatsoever only I do. So absolutely no hope in hell of him knowing anything.
D's ragdoll princess senses my mood tonight and has spent much time sitting on my knee purring and looking intently at me. Poor thing in her own way she is trying to help me. I said to D tonight at least our furry friends don't rip our hearts out and stomp on them.
