oops--I need to be really clear.

in posting this, I am NOT asking for help--except perhaps for prayers. I need to vent and get this out, and this is where I can do it.

M60
H52
D20
M14 yrs
OW-old gf from 1986
bomb-5/18/08
H filed for D-9/10/08
D final 4/24/09
xH remarried (not OW) 2012