It is not the loneliness, really. It is the loneliness of being in subtle connection with someone while still being alone. He's got one little nail dug into me that I can't shake off...you know?
It's the reason why I wanted the Divorce to end asap hoping that it will damage this last connection between us more and make it weak. But, the connection is there and now that stbxH asked for a serious reconcilliation effort, he used exactly that, that we have a very strong bond between us that cant break. Funny, he felt it too but did a good job trying to kill it for the last 3 years.
Anyway, AK, we are humans, I figure years later, we will stil have a tiny weak point for the men we loved and had babies with. That deosnt mean they will have a saying or control over our lives. Stop fighting yourself and ...relax. You need some sleep and optimism. Stop thinking so hard. K
