wife left, wants divorce, possibly bipolar

[ryepatch]

well, i'm not going to start thinking of myself as single, maybe it's semantics but i feel like it defeats the purpose of what i'm trying to do right now. i feel like you were closer to the mark when you said think of it like she's on a long trip.

i see what you mean about patience and reward. i just need to find deeper streams of patience. the reward would be respect for my patience. i know i'm looking for crumbs here, it just feels so pathetic sometimes. if she weren't sick, i should be angry as hell, so it's confusing. i just hope she realizes. . .

i'm doing ok again today. i've decided that i need to accept that i have an anxiety disorder, specifically a panic disorder, and my wife has a mood disorder, and there's been a bad feedback cycle for a while. i'm getting myself together, i hope she's working on doing the same.