Still in the tunnel with hubby

[kjensen]

Journaling:
Acted somewhat upbeat last night. H seemed a bit better. He did make a snarky comment at dinner about how it was cold(I'd taken it out of the oven early to feed my oldest who had to go to band practice)..I let it slide.

My youngest(D12) told me she didn't care for the way Dad talked to me about dinner, after H left with D13... She picks up on all of it. She knows Dad is in MLC and that depression is an illness and we need to be patient and understanding. I said I agree that it wasn't a nice way that Dad talked to me...Hope the girls are getting the right lessons out of all of this and not the wrong lessons... We were closer last night, but I can still tell H is mentally distant(in withdrawal is my guess)..

I did notice some searches on the internet history of the computer and asked H if he knew so-and-so, a name that came up on the search history(auto-fill). He said "no" but I know who it is, (a friend of OW, listed as her friend on facebook)... So the secretiveness continues. I think that is one thing I have the hardest time with- the secrets which erodes my already eroded trust of H...