So I'm terrified for what I am about to do, but I know it needs to be done. I need to go as dark as possible (not completely because of the boys). I need him to realize that I am not his friend. I feel like I am taking such a risk here. If I had done this a couple weeks ago, I wouldnt have felt this way, but because of the way he has been behaving lately, I'm scared that I'm going to push him back away, when it feels like he is finally being 'human' again.
So re-assure me please Of course I could be an idiot, and his emotions may not be genuine (the other day when we talked he cried the whole time) But I'm so scared that he really is coming around, and this is going to backfire on me. He is so stubborn, what if he senses my non-chalant attitude and says "well, she doesnt care, so why should I"
I think I am answering my own questions.. if he really is coming around, this shouldnt push him back away, this should again make him realize what he's losing... right??? I hope!!
Need to keep telling myself this... Regardless of how he is acting towards me now, he is STILL committing adultery.. he is still spitting on our marriage daily..
thanks for reading my rambling
Me: 36 H: 33 S1: 4 S2: 2 Together: 13 years Married: 7 years Bomb: May 09 Found out about affair: June 09 Moved out: June 09 He Filed: July 09 Moved in with OW: July 09
Of course I could be an idiot, and his emotions may not be genuine (the other day when we talked he cried the whole time) But I'm so scared that he really is coming around, and this is going to backfire on me. He is so stubborn, what if he senses my non-chalant attitude and says "well, she doesnt care, so why should I"