WAW - Very confused and devastated - pt 11

[confusedinpa]

All,

Once again, I find myself thankful of having folks hear who care enough to support me and potentially save me from myself.

Take care of yourself - emotionally, spiritually, physically and mentally. Give yourself some credit for getting this far, now call a timeout and catch your breathe and get some water. Time to get your head back in the game. You are reacting instead of thinking thru the play.

Detach, drope the rope, let go, find space, meditate, whatever it takes so that you find a little peace. It's not your fault you are in this situation. Forgive yourself and love yourself. You can't give away won't you don't have. You can handle it.

Coach,

This does make a lot of sense to me. Thanks for the reminding me of taking care of me. I know at times it sounds like I haven't detached as I really use this forum to vent and think out loud, as well as journaling. I know I do have a long way to go, but do think I've started down the road.

I have forgiven myself for my end of what's brought our marriage to this point and am trying to "love myself" again. It's hard to be happy with myself considering the mess the boys and I are in, but I do recognize it took 2 people to get us to this point. I do recognize how much I have survived already and am thankful for all the love and support I have gotten from my friends, family and the people here.

I know that I will survive the blow of finding how she has been cheating and lying to me all this time. I don't know what that survival looks like but I know I will.

Thanks for guiding my head back in the game - without the use of lumber!