Hey y'all -

Man, I feel awful - head full of yuck with this cold and all... W went to bed about 7:00, she's feeling worse than I am. Why am I still up? Because I got my NEW COMPUTER today!!! P4 2.8MHz, 512M DDR2, 80G hard drive - if you could hear me now, I'd be making Tim Allan's man-grunt noise. So what do I do with all this computing power??

THat's right - I get online and post to the message board.

Optimist and Azure are going to have a field day with me now, I know it.

Thanks for all the responses y'all - David, good to see ya on the board! Can never get enough engineers (right Sage?) - you know, I went to my C session today and I started talking about the book I'd been reading, and we got into a big discussion about metaphysics, religion, energy, etc. etc. - not what I was expecting from therapy, but it's certainly interesting... my counciler is, frankly, one of the most intersting people to talk to I've ever met.

You know, about the bed and all - we have a nice 4-post queen size bed, bought it and the mattress in the year before the boys were born - still new and all... but frankly, I've felt a little cramped in it myself. Plus, it's not fun to have this feeling like I've got to be propped up on my side all the time to avoid snoring... W is always sure to roll me over. I tend to be more of a cuddler that her I guess - she feels a bit crowded if I do too much. So - getting the king bed, maybe not a bad idea. Plus, W is always interested in those commercials about the mattresses with adjustable firmness. Man, suddenly it seems like we're talking about replacing EVERYTHING in the house - after the move and all, I guess that's what happens.

Well, I've got to go to the doctor soon to check up on the ADs - kind of want to get off them at this point, but I'm getting advice to stay on them through the holidays. Anyway, I'll ask him then about the snoring thing. I had a friend that went through a sleep study for snoring, now he sleeps with a special mask that feeds a stream of air to somehow keep the passages open.

Just what I want to do: put on some Darth Vader get-up for bed. My W has a mouth-guard she wears at night because she tends to grind her teeth. I can see our bedtime scene now, like some budget sci-fi movie. Especially with us trying to reignite our intimacy.

Well Totite, you had to ask, so I'll spill - yeah I went to the spa day. My W arranged a massage, facial, and haircut. I'll admit it here, but not to anyone I know in the flesh. It was all pretty good, I felt great when I left. Good stuff.

I bought a travel book on Tahiti the other day. Thinking about planning a trip for our 5-year anniversery next June. You know, get a grass shack on the beach kind of a thing.

Oh, and here's something else - W volunteered that we should plan to go to GA for Christmas this year - this is HUGE. W had typically hated traveling there - those of you that have been following my thread for awile may recall that this figured into some of our conflict over the past year. I was blown away - she's really trying.

She said tonight that she's afraid that she's not doing enough, that I'm going to resent her or something (she went to bed early, being sick). She feels so vunerable with me AND the boys, feeling so much, makes her feel exposed - "out of control" is how she put it. I told her my love for her just is - it's not dependent on what she does or anything else. She says she's never had unconditional love in her life before.

Well, I should get to bed and get my rest. Later y'all -

- Bill