My first aim was to steer our ship into calmer waters out of crisis mode into a holding pattern. I reckon after 12 months it finally is feeling like the ship slowed down, turned and is now maybe in a position to head towards the calmer waters. If I was not seeing the results I am seeing, I would not continue. In the last three months I seem to have gone from getting respect, relaxing with H 20% of the time to more like 70% of the time.
I have no problem in general with the idea of going solo, I have the skills. The last couple of weeks is the closest I have come to throwing in the towel, and on several occasions. Trying to keep no expectations is probably harder now than when things were more crisis.
I do have good friends on the alt keeping a close eye on me, they just don't get the MLC aspect of it which is cool. I do probably need to look after myself a better, so doing that first would be a good start. Developed insomnia that I should sort out, a bit harder with toddlers who wake during the night. I did start thinking of that today and have arranged a two hour power walk (with prams and bikes) to wear us all out tomorrow. I do need to be there for my kidlets for sure.
