Yeah, I meant it in the sense that it is easier to suggest someone else let go that it is to actually let go yourself. Its middle of the night posting where I am so my point can get a bit lost too.
But your sure picked a rough couple of days for me too. It seems to me the path I need to take that is getting me results in my sitch needs me to stay open to connect the week or so H is here, we connect just a little bit more, I then get the fallout, have to go back and detach taking several days to reach the unconditional love just in time for the next small reconnection. If I am detached when H is around, I get too detached and it creates a wedge driving us further away.
I get through my time with H by living in the moment (impermeance) as much as possible during that time, I can't even come on here as it pulls me out of that zone I need to focus on Acting As if all is ok so much.
I need to smooth it out, but I am getting results so don't think I should make major changes just now. Yesterday I was really wishing H could have just opened his mouth and told me what was on his mind instead of hours of minor humiliation, even though I still had a good evening. Just not needed and so unlike old H, poor me! Today I have now let that weekend go and feel better. I think I had better go re-read some of my zen books this week, must add that to my list!
