Woo hoo something fun! I love just getting in the car and going out. Of course, I have to check the taxi schedule first but I get to be chauffered around now and it is getting less scary!
Have a good day....
"Acceptance doesn't mean resignation. It means understanding that something is what it is and there's got to be a way through it."--Michael J. Fox
Mach, how the heck do you know so damn much about this stuff.
And don`t tell me its cus your living it for so long. I reckon I`m in MLC territory for past three years. Maybe more. Just so slow I didn`t even see it when it was right under my nose.
The heart head stuff...I`ve only copped on to that one in the past six months.
Learning all about following my heart now, going against what may seem logical.
Still jump over and back into either place though.
But letting go does make sense from head and heart point of view now. That, and living in the present, with what I`ve got right NOW.
I took from Storms post that hey, its not easy to do something just cus everyone else suggests it should be done.
Sometimes though I panic. And need the support of others here who know the space I`m in.
Have to say though I`m feeling really ok, despite everything.
Trying not to run in to the fear place and the future place cos they might never happen.
Mach, how the heck do you know so damn much about this stuff.
I was just thinking the same thing.
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That, and living in the present, with what I`ve got right NOW.
This also great wisdom, and what I have finally concluded. I too get panicky when I think about the what ifs and the future possibilities, but if I can focus on NOW, TODAY, I do pretty well.
Now let's see if I got that quote thingy to work right.
Yeah, I meant it in the sense that it is easier to suggest someone else let go that it is to actually let go yourself. Its middle of the night posting where I am so my point can get a bit lost too.
But your sure picked a rough couple of days for me too. It seems to me the path I need to take that is getting me results in my sitch needs me to stay open to connect the week or so H is here, we connect just a little bit more, I then get the fallout, have to go back and detach taking several days to reach the unconditional love just in time for the next small reconnection. If I am detached when H is around, I get too detached and it creates a wedge driving us further away.
I get through my time with H by living in the moment (impermeance) as much as possible during that time, I can't even come on here as it pulls me out of that zone I need to focus on Acting As if all is ok so much.
I need to smooth it out, but I am getting results so don't think I should make major changes just now. Yesterday I was really wishing H could have just opened his mouth and told me what was on his mind instead of hours of minor humiliation, even though I still had a good evening. Just not needed and so unlike old H, poor me! Today I have now let that weekend go and feel better. I think I had better go re-read some of my zen books this week, must add that to my list!
