I had every "right" to seek solace in the arms of a kind and gentle woman, I didn't, I simply started establishing boundaries. Am I special? Nope. Am I perfect? Absolutely not!
However, I sleep well at night because I did the right thing.
I'm sorry you suffered from her behavior. It's a lot easier for a man to set boundaries, however. My husband is a foot taller and has a hundred pounds on me so he doesn't always care if I have any "boundaries" or not. He pretty much thought I could stick my boundaries up my ass. I can stick a sign in my yard that says Don't Walk On The Grass, but I can't physically stop someone from doing it. Again, I didn't say I had "the right" to do it. I'm saying I was emotionally desperate and someone took advantage of that. I am so sick of my words being twisted around. I'm saying that as an emotionally battered and physically intimidated wife I didn't handle my situation in an emotionally appropriate way. But I did what a lot of people have done. Which was am mistake.
The last thing I'm saying about this is that I didn't sleep well. I went through a lot of torment. I wasn't "having a blast." I have lifetime scars. It's not a big party. My word does mean something to me. I suffered from that. It was mostly painful. I considered suicide.
My H doesn't even know it happened.
Even all this talking about it the last two days has been extremely emotionally painful for me and has reopened things that I need to keep closed.
