I am doing good, besides my stupid insecurities. It is just that I want to trust H soooo bad, but there is just incident after incident with him. When everything seems to be going good something he does puts us back. I do try to keep my PMA up but when things take me off guard I react...and I know that is the worse thing to do.
The thing about the porn is that he has always said how disgusting it is and he didn't understand how men look at it. So I guess that pretty much bothers me because why say one thing and than do another. So in other words is what can I believe is the truth. I try very very hard not to be the mother and try and be understanding and supportive and be all that he needs. I am not perfect and I do slip up. My biggest problem has been that I have been so focused on being there for him that I have stopped with my GAL....he does have a tendency to want a lot of attention and for the focus to be on him... whether it be in our relationship or in public.
I hope I have answered some of these questions a bit. It is just really hard to go into all the details because not only do I have limited time but it would probably be a book rather than a stitch....lol
