Still Wondering How To Handle Things!!

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Thanks Mishka...I really dont want to be his second choice.

I did have this guy ask me out...if I was ready...he knew the last time I went out with him, I werent ready...he said he didnt want me to go out with him to help me get over H. I understand that, but now It's different. I cant say Im over my H. I dont know if I will ever be over him. I will always love him. But Im ready to just move on with things. Tired of being his "back up" plan.

I guess its just hard after hoping, praying and waiting for so long, to just give it all up....but like you said, am I willing to let this go on for 5-10 more years...and would he only come back because I would be the only one who would take him??? I dont want to be that person.

He has been down and quiet the last few days. I believe he can see that Im taking steps to move forward more than ever now.

Believe it or not, Im hoping he can find someone else to love him. Honestly though, I believe he will be alone for a long time. That however, does make me sad. Because he is a good person who has just made bad choices in his life, and now he is paying for them.