Thanks for asking LFA. I am in c. I have found a wonderful counselor who really knows her stuff. She has been doing this for a while and she really has been able to see clearly and to get me off the my fault/her fault paradigm that I was stuck in. I'm doing a decent job of taking care of myself. I'm working out regularly, playing tennis for the first time in roughly ten years this weekend, and I eat well.
I have come to understand that I do not need my w. I want her though. This divorce seems very unnecessary. But I have accepted that I don't get to control that.